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Keeping fire :::::::::::::::::::::::::: An unfinished story
my struggle :-/
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wow life is never easy..why!!!!
i was desperately looking for job..and now that i got the job that i wanted, i may not be able to arrange my time conflict to accept it. Im in dilemma situation again...my head's too spinning with making choices all the time... personal goals, family, responsibilities etc etc are all important, none is more or less ... but $$ is limited...so its all about choices... and because none is more or less important it is just super hard to make choices sometimes feeling like guilty because i may be a selfish person to at least someone among my beloved ones whichever choice i make... moreover,limited choices make it does not seem like i have so many choices at all... i am also dying for a better camera so i give my passion for photography a good treat.But i will forget that for now :-S.it is nothing urgent..priority! :-)
oi..
but good thing is i am so in love, and we are strong and loving so it gives me some motivation and energy.
i hope i will figure out something in the end of the day.
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Ya, i need
abd thinking of good camera too!
I could afford IT or a good one and would not need IT too much or often. I also have to learn how to use one in conjunction with the computer that i am loking into bying.
That MSN article link, i read as well.
This work and my next soon registered business will need picture taking at times and sometimes.
I could buy IT and you can use IT most of the time while you are on this planet.
Need other computer work as well and last resort futton made to be used by only one person all of the time.
Anyway, nice reading from you and hope your love lasts forever.
Gerald Klick Klick
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thanks gerald :-)
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dont worry it will all be ok dear.... everything has a way of falling in place some way or the other, thats the mystery of life.
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hey angel.. things have a way of working out.. you are right, you can't make eevryhting or everyone happy.. but what is most important , and what is it that if it passes by that you will never have, who will understand your predicament when you make the choice and not blame you for it, because they knew you just had to.. all these things come to my mind atleast.. cos soemwhere i have been through it...
but you sound like a girl with a sound and balanced head. things will be fine :)
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just a gau bong
Lan Anh yeu-
There is rumbling and fighting in my tummy from super spicy jalapenos and too much Star Wars on my mind mixing with PEIS, but when I take a deep breath and read your update again I feel missing you so much. I do not know if I can say more than I already have, but deep down in my tummy there is not fighting going on between weird cheese, some bia and hot stuff.. there is a little spot that tells me things will be ok. Oh yeah it sounds cheesy, but one thing I actually definately feel is that I should trust my intuition...
And my intuition tells me that even in struggle and frustration, the happy part is that it teaches us and gives us experience and knowledge on how to deal with these situations... and I also feel, which is more subjective than intuition, that I know we are both persistent and able and willing to do what we must so that we achieve our goals. I feel like you will be able to manage the time conflict, and i know that WE ARE HERE FOR EACH OTHER for managing money. It is not simple, but it is not entirely complex either. We are young and 'we are the poors' ;-), but we are also very resourceful and, careful (mi me tre more than I ;-P)... and I feel like we will do what we must in Ecuador as well. I do not think I am being unrealistic, i think I know that determination and will speak volumes when put into motion. I know that we have family who love and will help us out if we really need it. I know that our families, especially yours lan anh yeu, miss you and want to see you and there is no reason we should not go to them this summer, because we are and will work together to do what we must in the future - and have shown that we are doing our best to plan and figure things out now.
I am a little frightened of living in another country, speaking a language I am still very bad at, and especially in one of the poorest countries of the world. I do not know what to fully expect. i know we both share this minor trepidation but also look after it with a sense of adventure and willingness to confront challenges. I also realize some challenges can put us in situations that are over our head in being able to deal with. Yet unless we pursue and are willing to do so... well then i feel like it would not be testing our very limits, how we respond to things... how we are able to deal with life. Success, for me, means not just confidence, but also learning many skills... changing patterns and directions in my life that I hope will not only further educate but also inspire. Hehe, dont worry baby, im not going to go join some whacky revolutionary force... but I am sure we will have some time to volunteer and work with amazing people. We are amazing people too.
So that is why i do not want you to feel such heavy pressure of all of these constraints and boundaries. They are real in some ways, but also fictitious in others. We can learn and certainly may survive on less, and money might be hard to come by but amazing people have ways of working things out to their benefit. I feel the savings in not going to see your family this summer does not outweigh the cost of us working a little harder in Ecuador.
And about the camera, yes, priorities. you are such an amazing artist and photographer.... it is your destiny to have a cool and expert camera for you to work on the skill you already possess. I also want em to get nose ring too ;-). But when it comes down to it, it makes me smile so much because camera or no camera, cute nose ring or not, or whatever material things or tools we do or do not possess, the blessing is that i smille because i know who the 'we' is in we are strong, and I happen to know the guy who you are so in love with. He is a very lucky and content man i am sure, who is happy to be pursing his goals in tandem with you and knows the limitless boundaries of motivation and energy that can eminate from a beautiful friendship, kinship and love.
few goals in life are attained easily, and those that do, probably have price tags we didn't see :-P
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my wise man u r such a good writer too :-P besitos mi bebe
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